I Really Love My Kids

Deanna CrawfordBeing a Parent, Canada, MomCraze0 Comments

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Motherhood can be a thankless job, full of exasperation and guilt… so here I express in words what I’m missing and what I love. As a reminder to myself, to allow myself to miss who I was. It doesn’t mean I don’t love who I have become, it just means, like everyone, I have moments of nostalgia…

I really do love my kids
but…..
I don’t love the screaming and the yelling.

I really love my kids
but…..
I don’t like them today.

I really love my kids
but…..
I am starting to get tired of always coming last.

I really love my kids
but…..
I miss my husband.

I really love my kids
but…..
I’m tired.

I really love my kids
but…..
I miss not smelling bad.

I really love my kids
but…..
Why do they have to ask what everything is! They know what it is!
They just use it as an excuse to touch it!

I really love my kids
but…..
I am getting dumber and dumber everyday by all the kids shows.

I really love my kids
but…..
Playing pretend for 100 hours is sooooooooooooo
boring!

I really love my kids
but…..
I miss going to work outside of the house.

I really love my kids
but…..
I miss my old body.

I really love my kids
but…..
I would like to not be touched for 10 minutes.

I really love my kids
but…..
I wish I didn’t feel guilty about something every day.

I really love my kids
but…..
I wish they would listen.

I really love my kids
but…..
I wish they could stay babies forever.

I really love my kids
but…..
I hate yelling every day.

I really love my kids
but…..
I wish they would potty train themselves.

I really love my kids
but…..
I wish they could understand patience.

I really love my kids
but…..
I wish they would stay in bed at night.

I really love my kids
but…..
I really miss smoking (I know, gross) and day drinking.

I really love my kids
but…..
I miss not having to hide to eat a treat.

I really love my kids
but…..
The laundry NEVER ends!!!

I really love my kids
when…..
They play and don’t notice that I am watching a mommy show.

I really love my kids
when…..
They conquer something that was difficult for them and they smile proudly.

I really love my kids
when….
They laugh.

I really love my kids
when…..
They are loving and kind to each other.

I really love my kids
when…..
They snuggle their little heads on my shoulders.

I really love my kids
when…..
They let me hug and kiss them all over.

I really love my kids
when…..
They try to make me laugh.

I really love my kids
when…..
They play together for more than 10 minutes without killing each other. (a repeat i know, but I really, really love it)

I really love my kids
when…..
They sing their made up songs.

I really love my kids
when…..
They smile with their eyes.

I really love my kids
when…..
They swear (they copy us, it’s not allowed, but man is it funny)

I really love my kids
when…..
They bring me a dinosaur on a plate and call it a chocolate muffin.

I really love my kids
when…..
I sing to them at bedtime and they put their noses against mine and rest their hands on my face.

I really love my kids
when…..
They pretend they have an owie so they can have a bandaid.

I really love my kids
when…..
They eat as much as a grown up.

I really love my kids
when…..
They tell me a story and I have no idea what they are saying.

I really love my kids
when…..
They wear gloves all day and all night and refuse to take them off.

I really love my kids
when…..
They hug and kiss their baby brother.

I really love my kids
when…..
Someone says something nice to them and they say thank you without me prompting them.

I really love my kids
when…..
They wag their little fingers at me.

I really love my kids
when…..
They are sleeping.

I really love my kids
when…..
They hug and kiss my face and say, “I lubd you mama.”

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About the Writer

Deanna Crawford is MomCraze, a stay-at-home mom of 2.5-year-old twin girls and a 6-month old boy living in New Glasgow, Nova Scotia, Canada. She started to write her thoughts as a way of keeping sane and hopes her contribution makes other mothers laugh and feel a sense of solidarity. Originally from Vancouver, Deanna spent her pre-child years singing in bands, staying up late and staying in bed until at least 10am. Deanna loves to laugh, drink wine with friends and really loves the idea of sewing – though she has yet to try it. Follow MomCraze on Twitter and Facebook!